Happy January, 2020! We have happened upon a new decade, but unfortunately, with it comes the same old diet culture talk. Instead of giving in to my urges to bash diet culture in this post, I'm going to share the why behind why these specific diets can be so triggering for me. On one hand, … Continue reading What Whole 30, Keto, and Paleo Mean While in Recovery From an Eating Disorder
I'm functioning, yes. But does that mean I'm fine? Does that mean my hard days fall by the wayside because they 'could be worse'? I'm performing well in school. Some would even say I'm excelling. I'm working on the side. I'm sleeping well. I'm applying for college to pursue my art degree (even out of … Continue reading The Me You Don’t See
I thought making it through the hectic spring semester of school would relieve the anxiety I was feeling. I believed that my eating disorder would quiet down once the external chaos disappeared. I thought I was going to have a semi-normal summer with weekend trips and time spent making art. Unfortunately, the anxiety and depression … Continue reading Healing Takes Time
I'm sitting in a coffee shop, drinking my iced latte, and enjoying the sunshine outside the window. Along with those simple pleasures, I'm enjoying the ability to take a deep breath and feel peace. This last week and a half has been filled with panic. School to-do's are building up to an extreme and unmanageable … Continue reading Doing My Best is Enough
About a week ago, I deleted my Instagram app. After I realized how much I was comparing my life to everyone else's, I quickly pressed the little "x" in the upper right corner of the shaking app. Goodbye. Well, until 5 minutes ago. I had the urge to look and surf the infinite profiles among … Continue reading Social Media Breaks
I'm dealing with a lot of jealousy, bitterness, and anger all of a sudden. The annual National Eating Disorders Awareness (NEDA) week is starting tomorrow, and to be completely honest, I'm just not feeling it. I don't want to think about the fact that I still have an eating disorder, and how much longer I … Continue reading National Eating Disorders Awareness Week & Update
I haven't been writing here for a couple months, so hello again! School and work have been taking up most of my time, along with taking care of my own mental health. I've never been a huge fan of setting new year's resolutions. In fact, I think they are seeped with diet culture with the large … Continue reading Reflection on 2018: Fight
Here are four common myths about emotions: Emotions are scary and bad. You can't handle hard and intense emotions. Some emotions are good, and others are bad. Emotions aren't helpful. FALSE! Let's break it down. "Emotions are scary and bad": Emotions don't need to hold that much power over us. They can sometimes be scary … Continue reading 4 Myths About Emotions and the Truths That Accompany Them
Today I wanted to talk a little bit about non-verbal processes and how it has worked within my own therapy. I'm a huge proponent of the arts and therapy. Art therapy, music therapy, play therapy, etc. I tried talk therapy for many years, but I realized that my emotions don't express themselves as freely in … Continue reading Gently Exploring our Emotions
September 10th. World Suicide Prevention Day. But shouldn't every day be Suicide Prevention Day? If you live with suicidal thoughts or tendencies, if you work with those who do, or if you've been affected by suicide, every day remains just as important as today. It's so easy to share a post, or so say that … Continue reading Honest Thoughts About Suicide Prevention Day
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